those who attempt to make their own path (eternal vigilance)

'I often hear discourses that describe my thinking as utopian. and yet it generally corresponds to my way of living and not to an imaginary plan....and it is true that changing the world does not go without a certain utopia. however, I do not want to prescribe anything for anyone. I just offer the fruit of my experience to those who attempt to make their own path.' - luce irigary. 

luce is now interested in meditation. in breath control and silence. in silence voluntarily chosen and silence imposed by society. faced by the general craziness of the world (poking grumpy bears with a stick are you sure that that is wise?) horsemouth and many others  retreat from the world. 

if horsemouth had a garden he would garden it. he must content himself with operating a compost bin and watching a tree grow, these are the 'facts on the ground' horsemouth installed earlier and he's glad he did because otherwise he would be looking out of the window every day at a complete fucking shit heap. 

soon it will be a year since the arrival of sten's building waste to be stored 'temporarily' in the front garden. horsemouth is planning to present sten with a cake to celebrate this anniversary. 

sadly for horsemouth the front garden is a building waste repository and the back garden is a storage area for dead bicycles and other botched projects. by dint of a great amount of threatening, cursing and even some physical labour horsemouth has managed to get the steps cleared at the front and an area on the decking at the back of the garden cleared as somewhere to sit and read. 

eternal vigilance enables him to have a shelf in the fridge and freezer each on which he can store his food and a continuous campaign of tidying enables him to clear just enough space to prepare it on the worktops.

eternal vigilance keeps the corridor and roughly 50% of the living room floor clear of kipple, tools, paint tins and unicycles. 

phew it is all such hard work taking disproportionate amounts of psychic energy and attention.  

it's another beautiful day out there. horsemouth is dressed (jumper, t-shirt, jeans etc.) and the window is open about an inch at the top to allow in the fresh cold air. the sun is shining in a clear blue (if hazy) sky. 

horsemouth's 'retirement' is going well - he's still within the money from his redundancy. yesterday was the anniversary of the last day's work horsemouth (ever?) did. if he has not made as much music as he would have liked it is still early days yet. he volunteers as a committee-man at the communal endeavour,  he does a little child minding and cat sitting, and, of course, he drivels on on this blog and on facebook and hopes that people find it entertaining. 

yesterday a kinji fukasaku film (the threat 1966) japanese gangsters on the run hold a family hostage to get the father to assist in another kidnapping. he hasn't started reading anything but he did pick up a copy of canal dreams  from a  book box.  yesterday also the anniversary of the release of space ritual. 

ok the post has been let us see what it is. 

the post brings good news that horsemouth's financial affairs continue to be in order (thus reassuring him abut his putative retirement).  today a walk (probably).