'it was not a dream, she said'

 a christmas ghost story from kilvert (on this day in 1870).

'the sick woman at cross foot, mary price, cowering before a roaring fire. she said, 'six weeks ago I was in bed at night and suddenly a young one came on my left arm, like a little angel. it was not one of my own. it was dressed in white clothes long and it had a cap like the dear little children when they are put into their coffins.' she told the story in such a strange weird way that I felt uncomfortable. it was not a dream, she said, she was broad awake.' 

horsemouth dreamt of being on the corner of church street and stoke newington high street. he saw sean heading up towards stamford hill. he saw someone else but he didn't look to see who it was. 

here horsemouth re-arranges a blogpost from 20th of december 2020.

'horsemouth tends to regard music making as an eccentric hobby/ bizarre psychological compulsion... he vastly prefers what he does  now to what he did back then (back when there was a record industry, back when there were 'deals' (allegedly)).' 

in 2020 it would have been nice to play some gigs (but, er, it wasn't possible).

since then he has managed to play some gigs but once again only a handful of people have got to hear musicians of bremen. the momentum musicians had built up was almost entirely squandered. 

like most musicians horsemouth guesses he's happy just to get to make the music (but then has no idea how to go about promoting it). horsemouth used to try and delegate that to other people (and now there's only him he's still like that). 

look at rob lawson and zali krishna - there they are creating music and releasing it, writing and releasing books even.in this they are ahead of horsemouth, he has not yet got his words off the screen and onto the printed page.

the music got free but it's an interesting variety of free - the musicians produce it for (nearly) free but there are still streaming companies, record companies etc all of whom barely pay. there's still a music industry (not that horsemouth ever troubled it in his earlier 'career' and not that he's going to trouble it now). horsemouth was glad to embrace myspace (and later soundcloud, mixcloud, youtube and bandcamp) as a way to get his music out past the gatekeepers and to the people. this was the main thing he wanted. 

everyone can now do it and in a way horsemouth thinks everyone should. 

horsemouth's model here is jacques attali's bruits published in english translation as noise: the political economy of music there's a lot here (as it will be read later on) about music as herald of the sharing economy. 

ok. so horsemouth, your mission, should you decide to accept it, more gigs in 2020(5). his aim should be to get up above one gig a year. double figures or death! 

here the dawn and a gentle rain. horsemouth has fed the chickens. later the bell-ringing.