horsemouth back from the land of anxiety. he gets this periodically. it's not a pretty sight. (and it can take a fair amount of time until he begins to see sense).
when horsemouth is this way nothing works for him. not phones. not computers. not zebra crossings.
he thinks he's out the other side of it (but really he has just delayed it until tomorrow (er. which is now today).
he missed the message and then it took him a while to get the message and by that time his contact was out of contact (you can see why this would make him anxious). hopefully communication and reassurance will be re-established. horsemouth will find all his circles squared and all his wagons drawn up in a circle (or some other invulnerable defensive formation) and then the (largely imagined) besieging hordes will not be able to harm him (huzzah).
and indeed so it has turned out to be. there turns out to be no rush.
horsemouth thinks he has always been like this.
the interesting thing was that while he was being anxious his toothache entirely vanished. (a rare case of existential pain driving out physical pain - horsemouth normally holds that it is the other way round).
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(attempts to draw line underneath it - at least for now).
'... look at freud's office and note with care the staggering number of funerary objects, objects dug up from the earth by archeologists. freud was passionately involved with the process of emptying the earth of human artefacts.'
and so they are in the detectorists. which continues on in its gentle way. does horsemouth think he can get to the bottom of his anxiety? he's not sure. usually he just wants to look at the surface of things, the sunny side of them. that is normally enough to get by.
today also (this evening) the triple negative gig (quadruple positive as a friend described it) . maybe that will cheer him up...er. hopefully it will not be oversubscribed.
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