horsemouth stopping/ horsemouth starting

'though I expected really to learn something here, I never thought I should have to start at the bottom of the school and have to unlearn or completely relearn so much. but now I have realised this and accepted it, I find that the more I give up my old habits of thought the happier I am...' 

- goethe, the italian journey, 20th december 1786. 

 'if I am thus seemingly cold compared with my companion's warm, who knows but mine is a less transient glow, a steadier and more equable heat, like that of the earth in spring, in which the flowers spring and expand?' - thoreau, journals, 22nd december 1851. 

horsemouth stopping

horsemouth has stopped doing a number of things in recent years. how does he feel about this? (he's repeating this he knows but it goes well with the goethe quote).

- horsemouth has stopped doing the housing stuff (the communal endeavour). he's been at that for about 25 years. 

how does he feel about this? well he should be delighted about it because the stress and conflict of doing it is gone, but he isn't because the opportunity to do good and to play at the top of his game is gone also.

- similarly he is no longer living in the homestead (shared house) in the great wen.

how does he feel about this? he was at that for about 10 years (this time around). well he misses having a place of his own (however annoying it was to 'share' it). he misses the ease  of access to friends and to music and to second hand books. 

- horsemouth has stopped doing the work stuff (beachside donkey rides). he was at that for about 25 years. 

how does he feel about this? well (however annoying his bosses were) he does miss it. he misses being useful. 

- horsemouth has all but stopped recording or playing music live for the last few years. he was at that for about 35 years. 

if he has not fully stopped playing music he has certainly done less. it is more than a year since his last gig as musicians of bremen. it is more than 5 years since he last released a recording. and yet he will not admit (to himself) he has stopped. 

horsemouth starting

'the bell ringing on thursday went well. particularly the first one. here horsemouth is making progress. is the bell ringing enough to keep him occupied? 

probably not. he needs more....'  

he has yet to get the music restarted (properly). to his way of thinking this would involve either playing live or recording (preferably both). recording means getting the kit to record with and it means having material that he wishes to record. 

you will notice the horsemouth starting section is less well developed. the year will be over before we know it. it's a grey morning and horsemouth has no plan.