'because I have nothing to say...'

'just as people sometimes work because they are bored, I sometimes write because I have nothing to say...' - fernando pessoa, the book of disquiet, entry dated 10th march 1931.

this wednesday the recycling bin goes out. thursday the bells. 

this friday is a friday the 13th (and there's a dave webb technodub show). 

the weather does not improve until this saturday. it remaining rainy and grey throughout. 

this sunday is mothers' day. 

horsemouth has just (monday) lunched going into town, because he would probably only buy more books and he has enough already. he could do with reading more. he has the dedalus book of dutch fantasy and the portable hannah arendt to be getting on with for starters. 

something horsemouth wrote about another war  four years ago 

(with the names redacted to protect the guilty).

'meanwhile the news continues to be fucking terrible. the ________ of _________ continues, those who can, flee. there is a strong media push for us to cheer on the _________ers but horsemouth would point to grozny, fallujah, syria...

to horsemouth's way of thinking actual wars with bombs and guns are more often than not bad news for the working class (who get to fight and die, be bombed and be shot, but don't get to profit from the reconstruction contracts). 

horsemouth suspects that _____ is unable to solve _____'s real problem - the politico-economic problem  of how to integrate it into global capitalism while still maintaining his rule, and so has adopted fighting wars as a means to stabilise his regime. ___________ and its client states on its borders are stabilised by oil and gas revenues but the world is marching away from oil and gas and this war will accelerate that trend (and retard it at the same time). 

_____'s regime could fall - an actual war is a pretty desperate gamble...' 

2 years 9 months of trump's presidency to go

horsemouth's mum's house is heated with fuel oil. it is towards the end of winter and the tank is low. had prices not gone high (as a result of trump's adventure war in the straits of hormuz)  horsemouth would probably have filled it up a little just to cover water heating across summer. as it is horsemouth will try to get it to last out until the end of april. in the autumn he will come back for a refueling of the whole tank at whatever price needs to be paid . 

meanwhile this morning horsemouth dreamed of getting new fangled electronic tickets to a gig with howard. but also lethal, lethal and his two sisters. 

the sun has been up and bathed everything in a golden glow but now it is hidden behind the clouds.