on waiting for things that really need to get done

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horsemouth has been doing a lot of waiting. 

he's waiting on a phonecall right now as it goes. 

the phonecall is a phonecall about a phonecall that is trying to find out the answer to two questions. who was it who phoned? and when will they phone again?  ultimately there will be  a meeting (maybe) and the stuff that needs to get done will start to happen  (again a maybe). 

the stuff that needs to get done is only the prequel (and necessary condition) to the stuff that really needs to get done and the stuff that really needs to get done only delays certain inevitable things (and hopefully makes things less painful). 

one can't help becoming hopeful when one is promised a phonecall (and similarly one can't help but become anxious and depressed when the phonecall does not materialise). one can't help but feel that if the things that need to get done (and heaven forfend to mention the things that really need to get done) really need to get done then surely the people on the other end of the phone should be moving along in a more expeditious fashion. 

there is a parallel here with issues in the NHS that horsemouth hesitates to make. his model here is abram tertz's a voice from the chorus. stuck in gulags abram can write home but he can't mention anything about the gulags (there is censorship). he can only discourse about unconnected particularities or airy generalities. 

it is for this reason that horsemouth finds his dealings with the communal endeavour (the usual source of frustration in his life) a relief. there he is in the hands of good professional people who wish to get on and do something (and it seems like the masses want to get on and have that something done). there too there are things that really need to get done and they also seem to be taking forever. but there horsemouth has learned to be patient. 

the start of the track above (brown rice don cherry) is lifted by a bill laswell DJ thing horseouth has (it will just take him a while to find it). sean recognised it immediately and of course immediately said that the don cherry track was much better than the use made of it by the DJ. (horsemouth likes both but he does think the basic bill laswell track is a little dull). 

horsemouth is sure he's heard it sampled elsewhere - any ideas? (ok ok he knows there's a site that does exactly this - the track is reanimation by bill laswell featuring DJ rob swift).  

outside it is a grey morning again (but should the clouds part it will be a beautiful day). the bbc weather predicts a beautiful day.

horsemouth's reading has stalled. he will try and relaunch. 

ok the actual phonecall (part two of the phonecall from the unnamed assailant) has arrived. the phonecall attempting to find out who the unnamed assailant might be has not been replied to yet. there is a plan for a journey and a meeting tomorrow. whether your humble narrator will be allowed to go or not is another matter (he may have to make his own way there). 

ok turns out he can go. (phew)